I am fighting fear that is overwhelming me tonight. It is irrational but nevertheless real. Maisy needs to have what appears to be minor surgery. She has developed a fistula at her trach site. The ENT has never seen this before. I know of a child that died of something similar and it is scaring me. We went out and purchased some clothes and essentials today anticipating her arrival to us. That is a step of faith after the losses we have had lately. We commented how difficult it was to fully trust that she is actually coming to us when we were at the store today.
And then we got home to a message that Maisy needs surgery sometime in the next week. She will stay overnight at the hospital.
We are hoping to bring her home around May 11th. We are planning on painting "Maisy the Mouse" on the walls in her room this weekend. We are already so attached to her after spending lots of time with her this week. She is so sweet and so "ours"...and because she feels like ours..now we worry for her and it is so hard to be away from her.
I know she is very well taken care of in the foster home she is in. They love her and know what they are doing medically. I just miss her and want to be with her as she is facing surgery again.
Please pray that we will cast these burdens on our Lord and not let our past losses take away the joy that should be ours as we welcome a new little one into our family. Please pray for Maisy and for her upcoming surgery.
